"Just chill, Penguin!"

The title of this post is an appropriate one, because it is what I was told by SMR a lot this weekend! And she was right, I needed to relax, and not get so anxious...problem is that I want everything to be perfect for her - and I want her to have to do NOTHING to get settled in...I guess I put a lot of pressure on myself but it's my own fault for not expressing that to her and letting it bottle up inside...

We had a wonderful weekend...lots of cooking - she is amazing. She knows how I hate to waste food - but she doesn't like to eat yucko things (which I agree with!), so last night she looks at the browning bananas (which I bought right before her visit), and suggests that we make banana bread! Before I could even get the word "yes" out of my mouth, she had a recipe up on our computer, and was shouting ingredients at me to pull out!! She is so amazing, and makes me really appreciate life more than I ever have.

I already miss her and it's only been a few hours! And even though I get a little stressy and stupid, we have the best bond where 99% of the time, I feel like she is reading my mind and I am reading hers. We did the gym thing on Sunday, which was nice. I feel bad though b/c her ankle is hurting her, and having had a similar injury myself, I can totally relate to the mind tricks that it plays on a person who is accustomed to being very active.

Then Sunday we did Church - which was very nice. Now, since I am on the altar, we don't sit together, but considering how I miss her so much, and most of the service was over, I left the altar at an appropriate time later on in the service, and went to sit with her. I think it was more for me than it was for her! She has pretty much learned to fend for herself! :) But I wanted to sit with her in church - probably one of these days we are just going to sit together (not to mention, go to a Catholic mass at the cathedral in Philly).

Sunday was our first "appearance" in the Philly Armenian Community as an engaged couple, and everyone couldn't be happier for us. SMR treats my family like her own, and that means more to me than anything else. Even better, my family treats HER like their own, which means that I know she is safe if I am not around every second of the day. I want to make the sacrifices for her that she is making for me, and I desperately try every day to let her know how much I thank God every day that somehow we met.

So now back to work and back to the grind of to do lists, etc...but it's ok! We have things to do these next couple weeks with our friends - but once that is over, we have a good old Big Fat Middle Eastern wedding with her cousin - which I know will be fun. Plus I can show off some of my new duds that we bought this weekend!

So many other things to type but so little time...

Starting anew....

And so begins my second foray into the blogosphere....my first trip was cut abruptly short, as my fiance advised me to be a little more careful about my identity - in case on of my bosses should see that I was considering other options in life!

This actually is my second time starting a blog - but not my first time keeping a diary. For years as a child, and I have the diaries to prove it, I kept a journal. Faithfully, every night I would write down the events of the day, some pointless, some having meaning. Hopefully, this little escape of a webpage will allow me to let out some of the things that have built up, and give me a chance to share a part of me that has been tucked away in the corners of my head as my time as been taken up by work and the other boring things I don't want to think about right now!

Anyway, here goes nothing...or everything....or somethings...ah whatever, I'm still not used to this.